Sometimes life teaches us through gentle nudges, sweetly prompting us to remember our truth. Other times it shoves us, hard. It's all part of the game, creating urgency for us to learn the lessons we asked to learn in this lifetime.
I have been dealing with an illness for several months. I’ve invested thousands of dollars, done all the testing, and worked with four doctors. I have found no medical solutions. They say I’m “a very unusual case”.
This process has been a massive spiritual teacher for me. I’ve cycled through victim/creator consciousness over and over - alternating between “this is happening to me” and “this is happening for me”.
Here is what I've learned and what is helping me heal….
Everything in nature exists for a reason. Literally, every single thing that is a part of creation serves a specific purpose. As soon as any aspect of nature ceases to be useful, it will heal itself and change form. This is because nature is self-healing, and we are a part of that nature.
Our nature is radiant health. Disease only happens when we resist nature. It is a way that our higher self creates drama to get our attention - to give us the opportunity to integrate a lesson.
We don't have to try to heal; healing is not about creating. Rather, it is about yielding to the natural process of nature repairing itself. But this can only be done when we decode the message embedded in the disease. There is a part of the human mind that requires us to become aware of any aspect of ourselves before we can release it. It is through seeing, acknowledging, and loving our shadows that we allow them to transform.
In the early stages of this illness, I was desperate for answers. I sought solutions through all external means - looking to the “professionals” for help, leaning on plant medicines to show me what’s happening, asking my friends. Through all the searching, I was denying that I could heal myself. That is why I put “professionals” in quotes. Doctors can be very useful, but they don’t deserve both our power and theirs. They are beautiful, intelligent tools we can lean on, by no means a replacement for our own inner knowing.
Essentially, what I was doing was standing on a street corner handing out my power and sovereignty.
When I realized this, I replaced “why is this happening to me” with “why did I create this disease?...How is this serving my highest good?...What is my body crying out for?”
I’ve discovered that what I am teaching myself through this disease is to reclaim agency over my life. I am responsible for all of my life, 100% of it. And, I have everything I need!
As the lesson in the disease started to reveal itself, I began to see this pattern playing out in multiple areas of my life. For example, I’ve done the same with my business - turning to “professionals” for help, at the expense of my own inner guidance. That's the kicker.
This isn’t an attack on collaboration, or mentorship, or the value of professional help. This is about my own ability to maintain sovereignty and stay centered in my truth. It has to be louder and more steady than the voices of others. I'm learning that I can seek counsel as much as I like, but that guidance must be run through my own filter of what is true and right for my life.
It’s amazing to see the seemingly unrelated patterns play out in different areas of my life. I’ve found that the questions I ask myself allow me to do a sort of “control F” search in my life for the same patterns playing out. When I search for the frequency of giving away my power, anything that resonates at that frequency will start to come into my field of awareness. In this way, I can heal and release the entire pattern, not just the disease. This is how I expand my awareness of what is happening in my life. Once I fully see it, it is able to heal.
And this is where I come back to the moral of the story - healing through non-action.
PSA: We don’t have to do anything to heal!
Healing only asks us to love ourselves a little bit more, to listen more intently, to accept the medicine of the moment, and let everything fall into place. It is soft, subtle, passive, loving.
Healing is the inevitable effect of self love and a common-day miracle.
So I ask you...Where in your life are you ready to accept healing? What dis-eases are you ready to look at? Where can you love yourself a little more?
I'm with you.
We got this.